Friday's BodyCombat
What a rough night at Combat! I had so many damn symptoms come up, it was one hell of a pseudoexacerbation! I was so completely numb, weak, tingly and my eyes were got so messed up, I was scared to drive home. I was a complete mess.
When I got home, I broke down and cried my brains out. It was just too much - mentally. I was so angry that my body does this to me, when I do things that I want to do. It's not fair and I had enough! Everything boiled over and it all came out. Chris was wonderful, though. I had gone into the bedroom because I was breaking down. But he could hear me and he came in. He didn't know if I had hurt myself at the gym or what had happened. Through my blubbering I told him and he comforted me. He rubbed my back and held me and eventually calmed me down. He's so wondeful.
I never break down. I never cry. This is probably only the 4th or 5th time in our entire relationship that he's seen me cry. I've only cried when things are so awful - it takes a lot to get me to that point.
So what I'm thinking is that I'm emotional unbalanced right now because I haven't been taking my Prozac. It's got to get out of my system before I can start Celexa - so it's quite a change for my body. I don't think I would have over-reacted normally. I can't wait to start the Celexa. I was very discouraged that the Prozac stopped working for me. We tried adjusting, and that didn't help. So now it's on to something more expensive! Top tier on my insurance, even more expensive than my Beta.
When I got home, I broke down and cried my brains out. It was just too much - mentally. I was so angry that my body does this to me, when I do things that I want to do. It's not fair and I had enough! Everything boiled over and it all came out. Chris was wonderful, though. I had gone into the bedroom because I was breaking down. But he could hear me and he came in. He didn't know if I had hurt myself at the gym or what had happened. Through my blubbering I told him and he comforted me. He rubbed my back and held me and eventually calmed me down. He's so wondeful.
I never break down. I never cry. This is probably only the 4th or 5th time in our entire relationship that he's seen me cry. I've only cried when things are so awful - it takes a lot to get me to that point.
So what I'm thinking is that I'm emotional unbalanced right now because I haven't been taking my Prozac. It's got to get out of my system before I can start Celexa - so it's quite a change for my body. I don't think I would have over-reacted normally. I can't wait to start the Celexa. I was very discouraged that the Prozac stopped working for me. We tried adjusting, and that didn't help. So now it's on to something more expensive! Top tier on my insurance, even more expensive than my Beta.
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